Hope things get better for you soon Paul.
Here’s a phrase that I like in times of trouble:
"Every step forward, is a step FORWARD.
Simply do one thing everyday towards your goal and you will get there."
Add on this…it doesn’t mean you won’t have to wait tables or pump gas to pay the bills.
Just remember to do that one thing.
Even making 1 phone call, having 1 conversation, or making 1 list, can be a step forward.
All the best to you
Mahalo